4 things to remember when you start a new relationship

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I won’t even lie, it’s scary! You find yourself falling for someone and you want to be with them. So many questions start to fill your head: Does he like me? How do I know? Do I initiate the first conversation? What if he rejects me? What will I do if he rejects me?


A bunch of emotions fill you up as you begin a relationship with someone and, sometimes we have no idea what to do with them, approach the person or deal with ourselves in this phase of our lives.


Here are a few tips:


1. Trust!

I took a SoulCycle class two weeks ago and the instructor spoke about trusting. It got me thinking how little we trust others and trust ourselves. We need trust to do anything in life, including waking up in the morning. We trust our brains, we trust our bodies and we trust the air that we breathe. A foundation of a solid relationship begins with trust. Like Joyce Brothers said, ‘The best proof of love is trust.’

2. Let go of the past.

It’s no secret that I have had a horrible past with people that I have dated. So, I can tell you clearly that holding onto negative baggage will only bring you down. We can all walking around crying about yesterday or move forward with love and certainty. Life is all about balance and your past deepest pain will find you in your deepest joy one day. Be open to it.


3. Be open

Every time I close myself up to the prospect of a new love, I remember this quote by Anonymous, ‘ Be as open as air. Unrestricted and rid all insecurities. Transparency wins hearts.’ We are naturally drawn to people who are open because we are creatures of receptivity. We pick up on each others’ energy and we tend to avoid people who are closed off. The person you are beginning a relationship with could be your soulmate, don’t block it off by being closed off and doubtful. Be open to the possibility of all of what might be, whether it be joy or pain, at least you are learning, growing and loving.


4. Be true
There is no point in being someone you think the person you like, likes. When they find out who you really are, things will go South. And, I don’t mean South like Atlanta. I mean South like you might find out that you are incompatible and you have wasted two people’s time by not being truthful. Being genuinely who you are will attract someone who is genuinely into it, which is half the battle.

5 great gifts you can give to your loved ones.

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We often think of gifts as material goods, and we tend to demonstrate our love for those who are close to us through material gifts. But when physical gifts break or disappear, what remains?

Our love connections and the way that we treat one another can be some of the greatest gifts. Here are five that I would like to share with you:

 

1. Let your loved ones be who they want to be.

This means that if your loved one makes a decision you aren't happy with, accept it and trust that they will be okay. Instead of wanting your partner's life to be how you want it to be, accept that he/she has their own life to live. Love them enough to support their decisions unless they're harming themselves and others.

 

2. Just give without any expectations.

A lot of us give to our loved ones and become angry or disappointed when they do not give us something in return. We place expectations on them for them to do the same as we have done for them. Let people give to you because they want to, not because they feel as through they owe you. Giving is not a burden; it's something you should genuinely want to do.

 

3. Genuinely care.

There's nothing more loving than when someone looks into your eyes out of pure consideration. Asking someone how they are while you are talking on your phone isn't a sign that you appreciate and consider the person that you are talking to. Take a few seconds to make eye contact.

 

4. Smile at your loved one.

Smile! It may be all that they want to see after having a rough day, or even before they begin a day that they think will be challenging. Ease up your loved one's day by giving them your smile. It doesn't cost anything and can create a lighter mood among a hostile one.

 

5. Consider if you would want to be treated the same way that you are treating them.

Sometimes we can get lost in our own heads. Every now and then, take a look at how you treat your loved ones and ask yourself if you would want to be treated the way that you are treating them. Regardless of how they have treated you, ask yourself if you have been fair in your treatment towards them. After all, we aren't responsible for how someone has treated us but we are responsible for how we treat others. This will allow you to treat people the way that you want to; not out of retaliation of how you have been treated but because you care about them.

The most important person that I needed to forgive was... me

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I remember when I first came to realize the true meaning of forgiveness. I was watching a YouTube clip of an old Oprah ShowEpisode. On it, a guest of hers said that forgiveness is giving up the hope that the past could be any different.

These words moved me and I began to cry. I had held on to so many situations for my, then, 23 years of age. I had held on to some of the mean things that people had said to me as I battled with my relationship with food, I had held on to broken relationships between family members and former partners and, I had also held on to not feeling good enough for many years- whether it was through academia or personal life goals.

So, I set out to change it. I decided to forgive everything and everyone for the past with a thirty day forgiveness coupled with hot yoga. They went well; the only problem was that the most important person that I had forgotten to forgive was…ME!

I was living and creating my life and therefore, I needed to forgive myself or else I would continue to energetically attract past situations that I had previously created.

So, I got a pen and paper and began to write. As I wrote, tears started to stain the pages and smudge the printed lines.These were liberating tears, tears of relief and self-love. I started from the beginning, remembering the first time that I called myself fat and then, I forgave myself for being so hateful towards myself. I forgave myself for letting my self-hatred spread to others and then hating them too. I forgave myself for hurting others.

I moved on to forgiving myself for calling myself stupid, an idiot and previously not forgiving myself. Once I was done with that, I forgave myself for allowing people to treat me however they had wanted to. I forgave myself for letting an ex of mine cheat on me, a forgave myself for letting another ex disappear on me whenever he felt like it and then I forgave a former-ex for leaving me when I needed him the most. Yes, I forgave them but I also forgave myself. The forgiveness was coupled with a reminder to create boundaries for future reference so that these situations would never happen again.

I forgave myself for the self-blame that I had put myself through after my father left. I forgave myself for the self-label of unlovable when I looked at a mirror or saw my reflection. I forgave myself for doubting my ability to be strong, beautiful and courageous as the doubts were completely untrue.

Once I was done, I looked at my letter of self-forgiveness and saw a true accomplishment. I made a decision to leave that smudged and messy letter behind and move forward. Forward with love and carefor the person that I had been so hard on before.

My self-forgiveness was so important as I realized that I can only forgive others if I forgive myself first.

How I face my fears after my biggest heartbreak.

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We all face heartbreak, it’s a part of life. No matter how much advice you get about heartbreak before it happens, experiencing it is a whole different story.

At least that’s how I felt when it happened to me. Last September, I went through the toughest time of my life. It’s hard to even fathom what happened but it did happen. I lost a baby and a partner at the same time. While we were together, we had had many prior talks about deciding that we would one day get married and have kids. Turns out, the universe had a different plan.

When, I discovered that I was pregnant, I told him and he disappeared. I ended up having a miscarriage due to stress. I felt the loneliest that I have ever felt in my life.

Through uplifting music, supportive friends & family and my will to be well, I made it through. The truth is that while it was going on, I knew that it had to happen and I would meditate, pray and remember that the universe had a plan.

Even though it’s over, I still feel fear. Fear that it will happen again, fear that this man, my ex- partner will come into my life again and I also fear that I will never get the love that I deserve; however, I face these fears by creating mantras like these ones:

1. I have learned what I needed to. Now I move on, wiser and stronger.

Sometimes it’s not easy. Sometimes I have vivid memories of when I found out that I was pregnant, calling my partner and him not responding. I begin to feel lonely again. Fear comes over me; however, I stop and breathe. Recite the mantra above and remind myself that the universe sent it to me for a reason and if I have truly learned from what happened, I can move forward with my life. With more wisdom and ability to survive what I have survived.

2. I am worthy of love despite my past.

Everyone has moments, particularly when we are feeling lonely, when we wonder if we are worth being loved. The truth is that I haven’t had the best relationships with men throughout my life: my father and romantic relationships in my life have not gone the best way that they could’ve. As a result, when I start to blame myself for what has happened to our love, I remind myself that I am still worthy of love no matter how I have previously been treated. When we have loved as much as we could and didn’t get it back, it is not on us and we can release that blame for there is someone that will love us as the way that we are meant to be loved.

3. Let go of the past and be present.

The past can very easily consume us. It’s only natural. However, it’s up to us to progress. At some point in our lives, we need to acknowledge that despite how we have been treated, our lives belong to us. The past is the past because it is over. I let go of my fear that the past will repeat itself by reciting this mantra and maintaining that today is my day, it doesn’t belong to those have ‘done me wrong’, it belongs to me and I will cherish it the best way that I can.

I love you, go!

 

 

 

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Dear U,

 

It's been almost seven years since we met. I remember when you would look at me as though I was the only person in the room, I knew that you were falling. Did you know that you were falling?

 

The memory of your raspy voice, the intensity in your brown eyes and your love is still so clear to me. Even though it's been a while since I have seen you, you are still in my heart. Where you will always stay.

 

I never understood when people said that love wasn't enough to make a relationship last until I met you. You were exactly what I was looking for in a man. So if it couldn't work with you, why didn't it work?

 

I suppose only God knows because I know that both of us tried. We tried and tried, almost too much and we suffered. We could blame it on circumstances, timing or our Egos but today, I choose to accept my love for you and let you go. Love is infinite but relationships have an expiration date.


Love can be challenging but partnerships shouldn't be this hard. The part of me that still believes that you are the one for me has died but my love for you never will.

 

I love you, go!

Why do I want to forgive him?

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 Because being angry was not helping me progress. I want to forgive him because I have allowed him to steal time from my past but I won't allow anymore time to be stolen from my present or my future.
I want to forgive him because things in his life are messy. If I am a part of his life, I shall also be so. Messy isn't good enough for me, I want clarity.

I want to forgive him because through his hurtful behaviour, he ironically showed me how I want to be loved and I am more than thankful.

I want to forgive him because I could go back but I don't want to. Everything that we had was a blessing. I was blessed to have him in my life and he has taught me a lot. That is why I forgive because life goes on. The clock doesn't move backwards, it moves forward.

The path of forgiveness allows me to elevate my path and my becomings. I am here to forgive because I have chosen to do so. My progress is not in his hands; it is in mine.