5 things that I wish I could tell all of my Ex’s.


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Whenever I hear a song that I used to listen to when I was in a relationship, it takes me right back. And, sometimes the emotion overwhelms me. Often times, I find myself wanting to reach out knowing that it is not a good idea. So, instead of reaching out, I channeled all my energy into this article.

Putting my thoughts to paper and expecting nothing in return.

This is what I would tell all of my ex-boyfriends:

1. I love you.

Yes, I still love you. The love has and will always be there, it has just transformed. If we weren’t or were meant to be, is irrelevant to me because we had our time. Although relationships are not eternal; love is. I accept our space and will always have love for you.

2. No one won or lost.

I spent so much time being angry at you and wanting to have one up on you, only to figure out that I was losing. Whenever we aren’t at our prime, we are losing. Just because we have decided not to be together, doesn’t mean that one person won or lost, it just means that it was time.

3. I wish you the happiest life you could ever have.

I experienced an array of emotions with you: from sadness to happiness and joy to anger. But ultimately, I am grateful that I ever could.

The best part of me acknowledges the best part of you and the worst part of me sends the worst part of you love. You are light and love. And, I hope you are living in your light.

4. I am sorry.
I may be many things but perfect is not one of them. Looking back, I could’ve behaved better in many circumstances and now that I know better, I (hopefully) will do better. I’m sorry for being unkind, untrusting, mean and spiteful for the times that I was.

5. You are forgiven.
I swore that I would never say these words to you but forgiveness is more for me than it is for you. Like Nelson Mandela said, ‘Unforgiveness is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die’. By not forgiving you, I was drinking the poison. I learnt that if I want to progress in life, I cannot keep reliving the past and blaming you. So, I forgive you.

10 reasons why I will choose love, over and over.


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It’s difficult to stay open to love and believe in love but we have to. We have to because love is electricity that we ignited our veins. And, like Maya Angelou says, ‘Have enough courage to trust love one more time always and always.’

These are reason why I will always give love a chance:

1. Because love is fuel.

2. Because love is power.

3. Because love is connection.

4. Because nothing compares to true love.

5. Because love unites us.

6. Because love opens doors.

7. Because although loving can be hurtful, at least we have the memories.

8. Because love is freedom.

9. Because what is life without love?

10. Because love keeps us alive.


5 things I wish I’d known before my first relationship


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I would describe my first long-term relationship as a mixture of these adjectives: wonderful, powerful, dysfunctional and volatile.

I'm content with how things have turned out in my life but I often wonder how things would've turned out if I knew the following:

1. Just because someone loves you doesn't mean they belong to you.

Your partner was alive before you met him. It doesn't diminish your love to remember and acknowledge that the two of you have separate lives and different accomplishments. Being in love with someone doesn't mean having to spend every single minute with your partner; it means making the most of the time you want to spend together.

2. You can't force your partner to change

Your partner is either who you want him to be, or he isn't. We often lie about who people are or what they tell us because we see what we want the situation to look like, not how it really is. The truth will eventually come out, whether it's on the first date or on your tenth anniversary.

3. Only you can complete yourself.

We're often told that two halves equal a whole. Mathematically that's correct, but in a relationship this rule doesn't apply. Depending on someone else to complete you sets your relationship up for failure because you expect another, imperfect person to make up for your imperfections. Of course, love that's healthy will help you improve yourself; however, there's no need to burden your love with expectations that probably won't be met.

4. Your friends and family remember what you've told them about your relationship.

If you're constantly complaining about your partner to your friends and family, don't be surprised when they aren't rooting for your relationship. They probably want the best for you, and if they only hear what's going wrong, don't be upset with them when they don't support what you've described to them as problematic.

5. "We" and "us" aren't only used for the good times.

We have a tendency to be welcoming to our partners when things are going well in a relationship, but when things aren't going well, we seclude ourselves. Relationships will go through tough times; it's how you deal with them that makes a difference in the overall outcome. Division between the two of you won't provide clarity — communicationwill. Communication only happens when you are willing to involve your partner in a dialogue of what has happened. You will only be able to work through difficulty by facing obstacles together.

Je pourrais être célibataire pendant un certain temps et ce sont les 3 raisons pour lesquelles.



Le mot célibataire me terrifiait. Je sautais de la relation à la relation, évitant de traiter et d'être avec moi-même. Seulement pour découvrir que pour entrer dans une relation, j'ai besoin d'avoir passé du temps avec moi parce que avant que je ne sois quelqu'un d'autre, je dois être à moi.

Donc, si mon partenaire vient pour le voyage, je suis ouvert à cela. Cependant, s'il ne le fait pas, je suis heureux et content d'être seul. C'est pourquoi:

1. J'ai fini de courir après l'amour.

Poursuivre l'amour ou une personne est un travail à temps plein. Dans ma dernière relation, j'ai commencé à voir des signes. J'ai vu des signes qu'il n'était pas mentalement prêt à être dans une relation et j'ai choisi d'ignorer les signes. Je me suis retrouvé à envoyer des SMS et à l'appeler, quand j'ai senti que ce n'était pas réciproque. J'ai chassé l'idée de ce que nous pourrions être et, à travers cela, j'ai appris que si je dois les chasser, ce n'est pas réel. Comme le dit le Cours en Miracles: «Rien de réel ne peut être menacé», et si je dois chasser une personne ou un partenaire pour savoir où ils sont, ce qu'ils font ou avec qui ils sont, alors ce n'est pas pour être.

2. La paix est le pouvoir.

La paix est plus puissante que le bonheur. J'aime penser au début d'une relation comme si vous laissiez quelqu'un dans votre maison paisible. Comment entrent-ils? Sont-ils humbles? Sont-ils gentils? Ou sont-ils irrespectueux et ne tiennent pas compte de vos règles? Si vous laissez quelqu'un dans votre vie et qu'ils ne sont pas pacifiques, ils ne valent pas la peine d'avoir dans votre vie parce que le début est quand les gens montrent leur «meilleur moi». Alors, imaginez quoi d'autre attend le long de la route s'ils ne sont pas respectueux au début? Protège toi! Faites attention à la façon dont quelqu'un entre dans votre vie et ne vous sentez pas obligé de vous engager envers quelqu'un juste parce qu'il est entré. Vous pouvez toujours leur demander de partir!

3. J'ai fini de régler.

Je n'ai aucun manque de respect envers mes ex, mais, à vrai dire, je me suis installé dans toutes les relations que j'ai eues auparavant. Je me suis installé parce que j'étais seul, je me suis installé parce que je voulais m'intégrer, je me suis installé parce que je voulais avoir des enfants et je me suis installé parce que je vieillis. Mais j'ai fini de m'installer! Après ma dernière relation, j'ai fait une promesse à Dieu que, soit j'ai une relation fondée sur le respect, la bonté et l'amour avec un homme qui me rapproche de Dieu, soit je serai célibataire aussi longtemps que cela prendra pour nous. se trouver. Et je suis un fervent partisan de cela. Le règlement ne profite pas à mon partenaire ou à moi parce que les deux personnes dans une relation méritent mieux que de dévaluer leur valeur. Nous méritons tous ce que nous voulons dans une relation.

I might be single for a long time and these are the 3 reasons why.


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The word single used to terrify me. I would jump from relationship to relationship, avoiding dealing and being with myself. Only to find out that in order to enter a relationship, I need to have spent solid time with myself because before I am anybody else’s, I need to be mine.

So, if my partner comes along for the journey, I am open to it. However, if he doesn’t, I am happy and content being alone. This is why:

1. I’m done chasing love.

Chasing love or a person is a full-time job. In my last relationship, I started to see signs. I saw signs that he wasn’t mentally ready to be in a relationship and I chose to ignore the signs. I found myself texting and calling him, when I felt it wasn’t reciprocated. I chased down the idea of what we could be and, through that, I have learnt that if I have to chase them, it isn’t real. Like the Course in Miracles says, ‘Nothing real can be threatened’, and if I have to chase down a person or a partner to find out where they are, what they are doing or who they are with, then it is not meant to be.

2. Peace is power.

Peace is more powerful than happiness. I like to think about the beginning of a relationship as though you are letting someone into your peaceful house. How do they enter? Are they humble? Are they kind? Or, are they disrespectful and disregard your rules? If you let someone into your life and they are not peaceful, they are not worth having in your life because the beginning is when people show their ‘best selves’. So, imagine what else is waiting along the road if they are not respectful in the beginning? Protect yourself! Pay attention to how someone enters your life and don’t feel obliged to commit to someone just because they have entered. You can always ask them to leave!

3. I am done settling.

No disrespect to any of my exes but, truth be told, I have settled in every single relationship that I have had before. I settled because I was lonely, I settled because I wanted to fit in, I settled because I wanted to have kids and I settled because I am getting older. But I am done settling! After my last relationship, I made a promise to God that, either I have a relationship that is founded on respect, kindness and love with a man who brings me closer to God or I will be single for as long as it takes for us to find each other. And, I am a firm-believer in that. Settling doesn’t benefit my partner or me because both people in a relationship deserve better than to devalue their worth. We all deserve what we want in a relationship.

5 quotes to help you through a break-up


It was over. And I had no idea what to do. I had come to the realization that I had been in a relationship with someone I didn't like. And therefore, I had come to dislike myself. Facing the truth was one of the most painful things that I've ever had to do because I had lied to myself for so long about the relationship, about the fact that we had very different understandings of love and respect. But in this darkness, I found light. It came in the form of these five quotes, here they are:

1. "When people show who they are believe them" — Dr. Maya Angelou.

My dear friend, Pearl, told me this when I was confused about whether or not I had asked him to give too much. This quote helped me realize that many of us excuse people's behavior. But if someone hasn't shown up for you in the way you'd hoped they would, they simply haven't shown up for you. Making excuses for them won't help; it will do the opposite. Acknowledging and accepting someone's behavior brings clarity.

2. "Don't take it personally" — Don Miguel Ruiz.

During a break-up, we can get caught up in our thoughts. We can become obsessed with what the other person has done wrong to us, promoting a victim mentality. The truth is that many people have decided to be whoever they are before they consider how it will affect you. Someone who is inconsiderate or disrespectful to you will be disrespectful or inconsiderate to someone else, too. It's part of their character, don't take it personally.

3. "When you hold onto your history you did it at the expense of your history." — T.D Jakes

The day after I decided to leave the relationship, I wanted to leave it differently compared to how I had left previous relationships. I didn't want to dwell. So I started a 30-day yoga challenge of forgiveness. Everyday I forgave him for a reason that he had hurt me. I was actively choosing which beliefs and feelings moved forward with me and which ones I could discard, so that I could become the person I wanted to be.

4. "Peace is power" — Joyce Meyers.

I had spent enough time being angry, frustrated and disappointed, that I could no longer do it anymore. I left a relationship that wasn't serving me and after that, I decided to let go of emotions that weren't serving me, either. I let them go because the only way that I could fully move forward was if I was at peace with myself and the past.

5. "I've been trying to get down to the heart of the matter but my flesh gets weak.... I know it's about forgiveness even if you don't love me anymore." — India Arie from 'Heart of the Matter'

I played this song every day for a few months after the break-up. It helped me acknowledge that at some point my former partner will move on. While that might hurt, I also have a life to live, and, I want him to have a life. Holding onto the progression of my former partner's romantic life only brings negative emotions and energy into my life. Forgiveness helps me let go of any competition with him about who finds love first. After all, it is my life. He was just a part of it and fortunately, life goes on.

4 things that I want in a relationship


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I’m definitely happy being single; however, at some point in my life, I would like to be matched with my partner.

It’s been difficult to not allow my difficult past with ex-partners to affect. But, it is important to move forward and choose love. I still believe there is hope for me, despite my past.

This is the kind of relationship that I want:

1. A relationship where peace wins.

Sure, partners fight. However, peace should always win over ego and personality-clashing. A relationship should be a place of love and happiness ; not of war and unhappiness.

2. A relationship built on honesty and trust.

I hear a lot of women say, ‘All men cheat’, ‘men are like dogs’ and, ‘all men are the same’. When I hear these words, a part of me gets angry because every person is different and has different things happen to them. Another thing that I hear some women say is, ‘As long as I don’t find out, he can do whatever he wants’. I’m not going to tell you that you should be in a monogamous and faithful relationship. However, if you have committed to that, then that is how it should remain; unless both parties decide to change things. Trust is not an easy thing to restore because the person whose trust was broken, will always be thinking about what the other person did for the trust to be broken and wondering if it will happen again.

3. A relationship where both people are committed.

I was in a relationship with someone for 5 years who continuously made me feel as though I was alone in the relationship. It’s not a good feeling. A relationship cannot survive if only one person acknowledges it and recognizes it. In order for a relationship to thrive, both people need to be in it or there is no point.

4. A relationship where respect is number first on the priority list.

If there is respect in a relationship, the fundamentals fall into place. There is no need to worry about your partner straying, being cheated on or being abused if you generally feel respected and heard in a relationship. Yes, there are the exceptions. However, if you respect yourself and your partner respects you, you leave little-to-no room for people to take advantage of you and you leave a whole lot of space for trust and love to flourish.

5 reasons why I am happy to be single at 29


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I’ve previously spent years and years looking for Mr. Right. The description of his physical features has changed over the years. When I was a teenager, he went from needing to look like Justin Timberlake, to Omarion and then to Colin Farrell. 

Years went on and I let go of the physical appearances and looked more at their personality. I would pray for a man who was kind, considerate and respectful. Granted, life happened and after each heartbreak and break-up, I am less eager about having a list and more eager about what it feels like to be with someone- using my intuition.

I have been with the ‘good-looking guy’ who turned out to be verbally abusive and, I have been with the kind, respectful and considerate guy who I felt little-to-no love connection with. So, nowadays, I am solo.

I would’ve never guessed that I would be single after almost being married twice and a few long-term relationships. I would have never guessed that, at this point in my life, unless the person that romantically enters my life brings me something that is above anything that I can do for myself, I would take a pass.

When I was younger, I would get into relationships based off of fear. However, now that I am content with myself, I would rather be alone than be unhappy and here are the reasons why:

1. Not everyone is forever.

The first time that I got asked to get married, I was 20 years-old, living in New York. An Italian man, 13 years my senior, who I loved asked me to marry him and I didn’t want to marry him but I didn’t want to say no either. I had grown to love him and felt like he was family to me. So, I kept him on a string. Not realizing that he was placed in my life for a season; not a lifetime. As time played out, I learnt that he was placed into my life to learn many things and to give him love for the time that we had. I also learnt that, not everyone is in your life forever and it’s okay. No need to hang on, let them go.

2. Life is too short.

When you look at life by counting how many years most people have in their lifetime, it may not seem short. However, when you think of how quickly each year goes by, it goes by rapidly. When I met my ex of 5 years, he was going through a divorce, I was 21 and he was 34. You could say that I was naive but honestly, I never thought that loving someone could be so complicated because he didn’t want me to love him and he didn’t let me in. I was 26 when I ended our relationship and, to this day, I still have regret: I regret that I gave a man, who is older than I, my youth. It’s almost like he came to steal it and I let him. Those 5 years went by like 1 and all that I was left with was a broken heart and some life lessons. One of the biggest lessons is that life is too short to stay in something that you don’t want to. Because, before you know it, your 20s, 30s and 40s are gone and you’ll be left with regret.

3. I am the only one who has to live with my decisions.

I tried being in a relationship with someone to make other people happy, to give my mom her first grandchild and to seem like the one who could finally get a guy. Instead of being the one daughter with all the failed relationships. But, each time, I was proven that my life belongs to me. I can be told to get into a relationship for how it may seem and to provide something for the people around me but I am the only one who is able to live with the consequences of my actions. When I look at myself in the mirror, I need to be happy with my decisions and to be happy with who I have chosen to be with. Because looking at an unhappy and worn out reflection is not worth any relationship to me anymore.

4. Being alone can actually be great.

The older that I get, the happier that I am to be alone. Don’t get me wrong, being in a relationship is great but what’s better is loving yourself exactly the way that you are. Like Iyanla Vanzant says, ‘If you can’t be with you, how can anyone else be with you?’ It’s a beautiful thing to enjoy the company that you keep, especially when the company is your own. You being able to realize that everything else is just icing and you are the vanilla/chocolate cake that you have always desired. Letting go of any pressure and desperation to be with someone, just to avoid being alone.

5. There’s no rush.

Ladies like Charlize Theron, Sandra Bullock, Taraji P. Henson, Eva Longoria and other ladies finding love and having kids later in life have truly inspired me. They have shown me that there is no rush to fall into something just because I am almost 30 and, “at the age that I need to have babies”. There is so much time to make all those things happen and, if it’s meant to happen, it will happen. I don’t need to force it, be desperate for it or run after someone to make it happen. It will happen if/when it is time. If not in this lifetime; then the next. But, it has to be right.

4 things to remember when you start a new relationship

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I won’t even lie, it’s scary! You find yourself falling for someone and you want to be with them. So many questions start to fill your head: Does he like me? How do I know? Do I initiate the first conversation? What if he rejects me? What will I do if he rejects me?

A bunch of emotions fill you up as you begin a relationship with someone and, sometimes we have no idea what to do with them, approach the person or deal with ourselves in this phase of our lives.

Here are a few tips:

1. Trust!

I took a SoulCycle class two weeks ago and the instructor spoke about trusting. It got me thinking how little we trust others and trust ourselves. We need trust to do anything in life, including waking up in the morning. We trust our brains, we trust our bodies and we trust the air that we breathe. A foundation of a solid relationship begins with trust. Like Joyce Brothers said, ‘The best proof of love is trust.’

2. Let go of the past.

It’s no secret that I have had a horrible past with people that I have dated. So, I can tell you clearly that holding onto negative baggage will only bring you down. We can all walking around crying about yesterday or move forward with love and certainty. Life is all about balance and your past deepest pain will find you in your deepest joy one day. Be open to it.

3. Be open

Every time I close myself up to the prospect of a new love, I remember this quote by Anonymous, ‘ Be as open as air. Unrestricted and rid all insecurities. Transparency wins hearts.’ We are naturally drawn to people who are open because we are creatures of receptivity. We pick up on each others’ energy and we tend to avoid people who are closed off. The person you are beginning a relationship with could be your soulmate, don’t block it off by being closed off and doubtful. Be open to the possibility of all of what might be, whether it be joy or pain, at least you are learning, growing and loving.

4. Be true
There is no point in being someone you think the person you like, likes. When they find out who you really are, things will go South. And, I don’t mean South like Atlanta. I mean South like you might find out that you are incompatible and you have wasted two people’s time by not being truthful. Being genuinely who you are will attract someone who is genuinely into it, which is half the battle.

5 great gifts you can give to your loved ones.


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We often think of gifts as material goods, and we tend to demonstrate our love for those who are close to us through material gifts. But when physical gifts break or disappear, what remains?

Our love connections and the way that we treat one another can be some of the greatest gifts. Here are five that I would like to share with you:


1. Let your loved ones be who they want to be.

This means that if your loved one makes a decision you aren't happy with, accept it and trust that they will be okay. Instead of wanting your partner's life to be how you want it to be, accept that he/she has their own life to live. Love them enough to support their decisions unless they're harming themselves and others.


2. Just give without any expectations.

A lot of us give to our loved ones and become angry or disappointed when they do not give us something in return. We place expectations on them for them to do the same as we have done for them. Let people give to you because they want to, not because they feel as through they owe you. Giving is not a burden; it's something you should genuinely want to do.


3. Genuinely care.

There's nothing more loving than when someone looks into your eyes out of pure consideration. Asking someone how they are while you are talking on your phone isn't a sign that you appreciate and consider the person that you are talking to. Take a few seconds to make eye contact.


4. Smile at your loved one.

Smile! It may be all that they want to see after having a rough day, or even before they begin a day that they think will be challenging. Ease up your loved one's day by giving them your smile. It doesn't cost anything and can create a lighter mood among a hostile one.


5. Consider if you would want to be treated the same way that you are treating them.

Sometimes we can get lost in our own heads. Every now and then, take a look at how you treat your loved ones and ask yourself if you would want to be treated the way that you are treating them. Regardless of how they have treated you, ask yourself if you have been fair in your treatment towards them. After all, we aren't responsible for how someone has treated us but we are responsible for how we treat others. This will allow you to treat people the way that you want to; not out of retaliation of how you have been treated but because you care about them.