Dear C,

It’s almost my birthday and I can feel you thinking of me. A part of me wonders what is different this time. The other part of me doesn’t want to know.

I have only love for you. We were a part of each other’s lives for the time that we needed to be, to learn from one another.

I’ve learned more being away from you than being around you because we became so toxic for one another, I had to leave. A part of me felt guilty about leaving you because we were supposed to be together no matter what happens. The vengeful part of me was secretly happy that I left you so that you could feel how it felt to be left, like you did to me whenever you would disappear.

We went through a lot together, more than I would like to admit and it’s better that we don’t speak anymore but I want you to know that I have love for you.

I heard you have a child now and although we both know that children cannot fulfill a part of us that we can’t ourselves, I am sure you have learned a lot about love. I am happy for you and send you so much love.

Any negativity that I have felt for you was none of your business even though a part of me wants to blame you for not showing up and giving our relationship one hundred percent. You gave me all you could and I am grateful that we got to share love in the first place.

Thank you for all the lessons, memories and blessings. You added more to my life than took from it and I now see that with clear eyes and an open heart.

Your truly,