Dear B,

You might’ve probably heard or not but I am leaving. A part of me has been afraid to tell you for fear that you will run after me when I already have so much to worry about. How you feel about this has been the last thing on my mind.

It has been selfish of me especially because I think so highly of you and have deep love for you. In fact, the deepest love I have ever felt for anyone has been for you.

I used to think that to end a relationship, I had to be angry but you taught me that is not always the case. And with that, I want to thank you. You have taught me true love and for that I will forever be grateful.

While there is a part of me that doesn’t want to see you with anyone else, I want you to be happy. So, when you meet someone who makes you happy, is kind and gives love back to you the way you have given to so many, I will be genuinely happy for you. I could never stay mad at you for too long anyways. Who could?

I often wonder how someone who has been through so much is so even-keeled and cool about life but then I realize that is another lesson you have taught me, that everything is relative.

I wanted to be the person that you end up with but I’m not and as I leave, I fully let go of the possibility and I release any energetic hold I have had on you.

With all the love I have for you, I wish you the best. You were not ready to be with me and that might be The Divine or another force working against us but I accept our fate and lovingly move forward.

Although I am hopeful about my next chapter, the one that you were a part of will always mean a lot to me and I will always keep that close to me.

I love you, B! Now, from a distance.