I’m sorry. I’m sorry for holding so much resentment towards you. Resentment was protecting me from having you back in my life.
I needed protection because I was hurt, deeply hurt. Hurt by your selfish and ego-driven actions.
Now I see that just because I have decided to move on, it doesn’t mean that I should hate. I hated you out of fear that you would keep entering my life- which is the last thing that I want. I want freedom and release anything that we ever had and the prospect of what we might’ve had.
Out of this freedom, I am grateful. Grateful for any box of darkness that you sent my way, it was a gift. A gift that I was able to transform into hopes, dreams and self-reflection.
I am done fearing your return, I move forward with freedom and hope that you can do the same. I am not ready to wish you well but just hope that both of us can be at peace.