evolution

Dear Hater (disguised as a fan)

Image from Unsplash

Image from Unsplash

Dear hater (disguised as a fan),


I want to apologize for carrying any resentment or anger towards you. It is not my job to judge you, that is up to God.


I actually feel kind of sorry for you. A part of you reminds me of how I used to be: broken and empty. Sad and lonely. In denial and living a lie. You are very transparent. And, you think you can run from it but God is keeping count.


You see, I have always seen you for who you are. It is very clear that you are so lost in your insecurities that you wear them as clear as clay.


I want to thank you; however, for teaching me a lesson that I keep re-learning over and over, how people treat me has nothing to do with me. I’m sure you have behaved this way before and a part of me wishes that you get well while the other part acknowledges that there is only so much others can do for you.


You choose your path and have chosen one of lies, deception and false-hoods. Which is okay. Live your life! It’s not up to me to punish you or get revenge on you, that is for God.


All that we do comes back to us. That was a catalyst for why I became a Yogi. Yes, yoga is not just a physical practice to look good. It is a practice about truth, honesty and growth. Something I hope you will learn about one day.



Together, we rise! With Alena Wertalik.

Alena Wertalik

Alena Wertalik

1. What has been a big part of your growth as a woman?

Growing up, I was trained by an ex-captain of the Mexican calvary horseback riding. I worked with him from when I was 8-years old to about 18-years old. He taught me how to build an impenetrable wall and be “bulletproof”. I was very clear on what this meant: that whatever hit me, physically, emotionally, mentally, it would bounce right off me, and I would keep going. 

I was proud of this armor, and am grateful for the process of building it up, because it ingrained in me the discipline and stamina that I have today. I am also just as grateful for the processes and experiences that asked me to do the painful work of breaking that armor down, which mostly happened in my last 10 years as a yoga teacher. The best way I can describe how this working of “breaking down” has shifted me is in how it has changed my definition of what it means to be bulletproof – I no longer see it as something hitting me and bouncing off before I keep going. Now, when “it” hits, it penetrates. I feel it fully. And I keep going. 

2.    Who, which person (s) has inspired you to stay true to your role in your divine feminine?

 

Someone who I have yet to meet – my unborn daughter. At the time of writing this I am five months pregnant. In the last five months I have seen and felt so much of why my body was designed how it was, and it has changed my relationship with it. I thought I had learned to love my body through the practice of celebrating it, but the love I have for it now is unconditional. This baby has taught me how to respect not only my boundaries, but to see what I am capable of. And, I know that her greatest moments of inspiration have yet to come. One of them will be when I give birth in March 2021, because the times when I have felt my most divine feminine have been in my moments of complete surrender, and I know that giving birth will be a great experience of this feminine power. 


3. What other women have supported you when you needed it the most?

 

I have a support system of women that I am in awe of. They are stunning, strong and encompass what I strive to be every day. I do give myself some credit for having chosen the women I surround myself with, but I actually have to give most of that credit to my mom. My mom has four daughters who have all chosen unique paths and have walked them with fierce independence. She has instilled in us what it means to love fully, take responsibility for our choices, and commit to doing the right thing, whatever the cost. 

 

4. What has been the hardest part of being a strong woman? 

To notice when I’m teetering that line between being strong and being tough. The difference between the two, to me, is that to be strong there has to be an element of vulnerability, which I feel is an innate ability that women are often taught to suppress.  On the surface, this makes some sense; if you look up “vulnerable” in the dictionary, it says “susceptible to emotional or physical attack or harm,” which I imagine doesn’t seem desirable to most. However, I have noticed that the mechanisms and experiences that have asked me to be the most vulnerable have been the ones that have allowed me to connect and grow. My truest moments of vulnerability have turned out to also be the strongest I have experienced.

5. Where do you see yourself evolving in the next few years? 

I, like most, have seen and experienced a lot of destruction this year. On a personal level, this included the loss of my job, my apartment, and many of the people I considered friends. But from destruction comes evolution, and I am already seeing signs of it. One major way of course is becoming a mother and a wife in the next year. I am also in the process of getting my applications ready to start law school next fall, and pursue something that has been a dream of mine for a long time. And I will keep teaching yoga! I’m very excited to be working with a childhood friend of mine on a barre/yoga virtual studio called Better Balance Fitness that will be launching in the next couple of weeks.

6.  What imprint would you like to leave on the world? 

Probably one that no one will ever notice because it happens as a byproduct of the collective consciousness – of us each choosing to see ourselves in one another and committing to lifting each other up to be the best versions of ourselves. 

7. What is your social media or ways that we can keep up with you and your work? 

 

My instagram is @onebreath_onemovement.