Dear B,

In case you haven’t noticed, I am a fighter, a hustler and an over- achiever. Sometimes I forget; however, that this mentality can work against me and the people in my life. It has harmed what we have and I am sorry.

You see, I manifested you and me together. So, when you showed up, it seemed too good to be true so I was trying to figure out what the catch was. I had my guard up because my past has been filled with genuine seeming people who were actually in it for all the wrong reasons. I have been in romantic situations for the wrong reasons beforehand.

So, I have had to look at myself and that mirror never goes away. In fact, sometimes it is hard to see that the person who is standing in your way is you, ‘The Self-Saboteur’. My self-sabotage convinced me to believe other people about you, only to realize that these people are not worth believing in. You are worthy of my belief because you have shown me your kindness, love and compassion from the beginning.

Here I am, B, I let down my guard and open up my heart. No more running, ghosting and pulling tricks that I felt I had to do before because this feels different. This is not the cycle that I was in, in my previous relationships.

I apologize for all the obstacles and the hoops. I am learning more and more that I don’t have to put up challenges in order for me to feel safe around people that I love. I need to trust my intuition about who I have chosen to be in my life. And, sometimes the wrong way is the right way. I choose you, B, even if it’s the wrong way because it feels a hundred percent right to me now.

All my love,