Why do I want to forgive her?

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Why do I want to forgive her?

Because she sent me a lesson that is bigger than our friendship.

I got sent the ultimate lesson to not take anything personally. And, just because someone behaves a certain way with you, doesn’t mean that it is about you.

I forgive her because when people show me who they are, I believe them.

I forgive her because I grew out of this situation. I was reminded that sometimes a boundary comes in the form of trusting myself more than anyone else will.

I forgive her because although she tried to break my spirit, I overcame. And, I will always overcome.

I forgive her because I would rather know who someone is than have an enemy in friend’s clothing.

I forgive her because everything is exactly how it is meant to be. Who is meant for me is for me. There is no need to force anything, especially friendships.

I forgive her and send her love. Of course I will stand up for myself but how she reacts is between her and God.

9 of the best things that never happened to me.

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I am such a firm-believer that where I am is exactly where I meant to be. I have no regrets because I see the past as opportunities for growth to move forward and learn with discernment and intention.

I have always carried the belief that if I have to force something in my life that isn’t fitting into it, there is a reason. It will be revealed to me over time when it is the right time- divine timing.

I have had some recent epiphanies about certain things not working out in the past and it has affirmed how I believe: everything that is for me will come to me at the right time.

Here are 9 best things that never happened to me:

1. Being married twice.

2. Starting a family with an ex.

3. Working in journalism.

4. Becoming a lawyer.

5. Fake friendships.

6. Moving back to South Africa or Europe.

7. Continuing my career in entertainment.

8. Any former romantic relationship.

9. Staying in New York City.

What it took to get to me- February 2021

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What it took to get to me

It took standing up for myself, to get to me.

It took me believing how people showed me to be, to get to me.

It took me trusting my intuition, to get to me.

It took me putting up boundaries, to get to me.

It took me acknowledging areas that I need to grow in, to get to me.

It took me fighting for what I believe in, to get to me.

It took me no longer being a pushover, to get to me.

How The New Moon in Aquarius might affect you.

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NEW MOON IN AQUARIUS

SYDNEY: 6:06 am, February 12th

NEW YORK: 2:06 pm, February 11th

LOS ANGELES: 11:06am, February 11th

LONDON: 7:06 pm, February 11th

As La Luna begins a brand new cycle, all things Aquarius hit home hard. For one, there are six planets (that’s including the sun and moon) in Aquarius during this new moon. That’s a lot! And, depending on where Aquarius is placed for you, in your birth chart, you’re going to feel this new moon’s message.

Freedom, independence and kindness are all Aquarian buzz words. There’s a strong sense of community building with this new moon, as people’s opinions, styles and points of views bind them in solidarity. This can bring a lovely sense of togetherness for those feeling like part of a group or cause. However, for those that think differently from the crowd, there can be a strong sense of isolation or rejection.

You’ll be pleased to hear that La Luna in Aquarius supports the underdog, the rebels and the free thinkers. And this new moon loves anything a little left of centre! So, if that’s you, stay on path. Don’t be swayed by beliefs that clash with your own.

Whether your connections are professional, personal or romantic, they should never be forged under pressure to conform to a different way of thinking or being. Sure, it’s gets lonely when you refuse to follow the pack, but at least then you get to choose your own destination. And, that’s worth a thousand false friendships.

Natasha Weber, Astrologist.

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Astrotash is accredited by the Australian Academy of Astrology and Cosmobiology and a member of the American Federation of Astrologers. Her articles have appeared inThought Catalogue, Out of Office New Yorkand Today’s Astrologer, in addition to international publications across the globe. She continues to research, present and publish, and is an active member of the following astrological organisations:

•          Australian Academy of Astrology and Cosmobiology

•          American Federation of Astrologers

•          Federation of Australian Astrologer

3 Things that I stopped attracting once I released my victimhood.

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There is nothing more attractive and inviting than someone who takes responsibility for their own actions. Until I understood this concept, I feel like I was only halfway living my life.

The truth is that no matter what we have been through, we must take responsibility for ourselves. Until we do, we will not reap the full blessings of victory. This ideal is the opposite of victimhood because instead of feeling sorry for ourselves, we can own up to things from a mature place.

With that, comes growth but it also naturally releases certain things from sticking around in our lives. I may not necessarily believe that we attract who we are; however, we most certainly attract lessons that take us to our ultimate selves. When we are victims, we will be thrown circumstances and people that we need to learn from in order to mature and grow.

Here are 3 Things I have stopped attracting since I released my victimhood:

1. People with unkind intentions.
Naïvely, I used to think that everyone meant well for me as I do for others. I would love to see everyone do well and thrive as long as they are being true to themselves.

Today, I see and understand that not everyone does and they don’t have to. However, energy is contagious and I would rather surround myself with people who we can vibe well off of one another’s energies.

I am done dealing with people are not truthful, have ulterior motives or who are just plain negative. I choose to be around those who come with a kind heart and show this in their actions.

2. Relationships with abusive people.

I have been very vocal about this. So those of you who keep up with my posts know about the fact that I have had many relationships where I was emotionally, verbally and (sometimes) physically abused. I could sit here and say that it was their fault but I do take responsibility for my actions.

The root cause of my need to have these people in my life is that I was raised by someone who was abusive towards me and my subconscious tried to deny it until I had to face it, head on. When I did, healing from my childhood could take place and I stopped blaming others for healing that I had to do.

It is very liberating to know that you can overcome any obstacle and thing that might’ve been designed to stop you and continue to thrive in-spite of them. Particularly unhealthy relationships.

3. Fake friends.

It has taken me up until recently to shed myself of any fake friends. Not acquaintances but friends. Those people who only befriend you because they might need something or because they need to have attention around them.

I will admit that I was a fake friend to many, especially when I carried a sense of victimhood because I needed people around me who would condone my behavior and support my negativity.

We spoke about one another and betrayed each other. And after our interactions, I would feel empty and sometimes even worse.

Since releasing my victimhood and taking ownership for my life, I have less friends but they are the kind of friends that support me and I to them. We genuinely love each other and know that we can agree to disagree. We come from a place of truth, not falsity.

9 Things that I would rather be other than polite.

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Sometimes I am filled with a heavy heart when I see (as a whole) how we have lost honest, loving and truthful interactions with one another. But then I remember that there is always hope.

There is always a chance for redemption. Personally, I have noticed that when I speak from a place of truth, it might trigger someone but I am done walking on eggshells or amongst people who uphold falsehoods. Life is about truth, sometimes it is unfair and other times fair.

Like they say, ‘Sunlight is the best disinfectant’ and once something is acknowledged, then we can do something about it.

Therefore, here are 9 things that I would rather be other than polite:

1. Truthful.

2. Caring.

3. Kind.

4. Considerate.

5. Moral.

6. Respectful.

7. Purposeful.

8. Intentional.

9. Receptive.

9 Things to never say to someone who has been in an abusive relationship.

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I have had my fair share of abusive relationships. Whether they were in my family, friendships or life partners. Although I am not a victim, I have had to heal from these circumstances and often feel like (in some weird twisted way) I went through it to be able to understand and have compassion for others.

To me, life is a constant process of healing. However, many of us do not fully heal from our childhoods because we are supposed to be grateful for the bare minimum that most of us receive from our parents because there are fundamental upholding systems of abuse in all facets of life.

If you have experienced many abusive relationships, particularly from a parent. Please know that you are not the only one.

As we are in the Age of Aquarius, most people will find the strength to heal and do better. With that comes speaking from a place of truth and doing so with conviction. Especially with people around us.

So, if someone lets you know that they have been or are currently being abused, here are 9 things to never say to them:

1. Are you sure?

2. What did you do to ask for it?

3. Why speak out now?

4. Maybe you imagined it!

5. I don’t believe you.

6. Well, why didn’t you do anything about it when it happened?

7. What responsibility should you take about it?

8. You’re being dramatic.

9. Give it time, you’ll be able to forget about it.

Dear God,

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Dear God,

I can feel many changes occurring in my life. I just pray that you, the angels of light and spirit guides guide me along this way.

I fully and completely trust my path and I am ready to embark on new adventures with an open heart, mind and approach.

I trust you and I am ready for all that is along the way, whatever form of shape it takes. I know that with good comes bad, with character comes challenges and, with happiness comes reminders to embrace them.

I am ready.

Dear C

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Dear C,

It’s almost my birthday and I can feel you thinking of me. A part of me wonders what is different this time. The other part of me doesn’t want to know.

I have only love for you. We were a part of each other’s lives for the time that we needed to be, to learn from one another.

I’ve learned more being away from you than being around you because we became so toxic for one another, I had to leave. A part of me felt guilty about leaving you because we were supposed to be together no matter what happens. The vengeful part of me was secretly happy that I left you so that you could feel how it felt to be left, like you did to me whenever you would disappear.

We went through a lot together, more than I would like to admit and it’s better that we don’t speak anymore but I want you to know that I have love for you.

I heard you have a child now and although we both know that children cannot fulfill a part of us that we can’t ourselves, I am sure you have learned a lot about love. I am happy for you and send you so much love.

Any negativity that I have felt for you was none of your business even though a part of me wants to blame you for not showing up and giving our relationship one hundred percent. You gave me all you could and I am grateful that we got to share love in the first place.

Thank you for all the lessons, memories and blessings. You added more to my life than took from it and I now see that with clear eyes and an open heart.

Your truly,

What does The Full Moon in Leo have in store for you. By Astrologer, Natasha Weber.

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SYDNEY: 6:17am, January 29th

NEW YORK: 2:17pm, January 28th

LOS ANGELES: 11:17 am, January 28th

LONDON: 7:17pm, January 28th

A full moon in Leo never goes unnoticed because Leo can’t help but attract attention, even without intending to. Leo possesses a certain magnetic pull, and before you know it, you’re in deep. Or, caught up in drama!

Fiery Mars and electric Uranus align with this full moon, urging caution. Is there something you’re dying to jump into? Perhaps you desire someone or something so much that you’re prepared to dive in without doing your due diligence. Stop! This is one time that looking before you leap is strongly advised. Acting in haste, or speaking without prior thoughtful consideration could land you in hot water.

Over the next four days, do your best to slow down. Not just physically but mentally and emotionally too. Consider all your options carefully. Sure, you’ll feel a sense of urgency and want to do the exact opposite. But, with this astrology knowledge under your belt, hopefully, you'll think twice.

The cosmos also offers you the strength to restrain yourself. 

Protective Jupiter and Saturn flank the Sun, granting you patience and the ability to endure. That’s where success is at during this full moon. Buckle down for the long haul rather than place your bets on a quick fix.

Remember, if something is worthwhile, it’s worth waiting for. And, if the opportunity passes, perhaps it wasn’t meant to be? This full moon, a missed opportunity, may simply be a blessing in disguise. 

Where's your Leo at? 

Your Leo placement in your birth chart reveals where you need to show extra patience, tolerance and self-control. Below is a planet list to guide you. Notice that I haven't included the slow-moving planets? That's because everyone around your age will have the same placement, making the effect more generational than personal.

MOON IN LEO your emotional landscape, mothering.

SUN IN LEO how you shine your light out into the world (this could be challenged during this full moon).

ASCENDANT IN LEO how you project your personality (you could attract jealously during this full moon).

MIDHEAVEN IN LEO career, life goals and ambitions.

MERCURY IN LEO Communicating, getting an idea across.

VENUS IN LEO love, female connections, money.

MARS IN LEO health, energy, connections with men.

About Natasha Weber, the author:

Astrotash, Natasha Weber PMAAAC, MAFA

A self-confessed astrology nerd, Astrotash is the resident astrologer for myBody+Soul,Australia’s #1 health and wellness site. She writes horoscopes for Mamamia and has presented on radio and podcast shows, such as Sivana and Healthy-ish. Astrotash has appeared on Sunrise morning show and is also a guest speaker at the Soul Star Festival.

Motivated to build a bridge between sun-sign columns and the ancient science behind our celestial movements, Astrotash aims to bring deeper personal awareness through the lens of astrology. When she’s not reading the stars, you’ll find her in downward dog, ‘earthing’ in the Australian bush or dancing up a storm at Zumba.

Astrotash is accredited by the Australian Academy of Astrology and Cosmobiology and a member of the American Federation of Astrologers. Her articles have appeared inThought Catalogue, Out of Office New Yorkand Today’s Astrologer, in addition to international publications across the globe. She continues to research, present and publish, and is an active member of the following astrological organisations:

•          Australian Academy of Astrology and Cosmobiology

•          American Federation of Astrologers

•          Federation of Australian Astrologer

AstroTash, Natasha Weber.
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9 Things that I have learned about anger.

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As I have gotten older, my views on anger have changed. I have spent a lot of time being and I was a teenager that was filled with rage and upset.

I healed from that but from time-to-time, I catch myself getting angry and allowing it to pass because I don’t believe in expressing my anger at people.

Although I don’t believe in operating out of anger: sometimes it serves a purpose. It can help us let people know to take us seriously after we have tried other avenues to communicate our frustration.
Amongst my journey with anger, here is what I have learned about it:

1) To be cautious of people who use it casually or are angry on a daily basis.

2) It causes disease within the body.

3) It can fuel ambition if directed at a specific target.

4) It is the cause of many people’s demises.

5) Once we attach ourselves to anger, it is hard to come out of.

6) It is of The Ego.

7) It can ruin a person’s life.

8) It can become an addiction to those who are not aware of the impact they have on The World.

9) If transformed into productivity, it can change The World.

9 More things that I will tell my future children.

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God-willing, one day I will be blessed with healthy children. Something that I have learned from being raised and surrounded at some point in my life by kids is that parents are merely guardians for their offspring as we are all extensions of God.

Parents are not supposed to impose or control their children but merely guide them in the direction that they see fit. Although not all guardians get this right, I hope that I will one day.

As I look forward at the prospect of having kids, I do so cautiously and will only do so if they have a Father who is stable, emotionally and financially, and who puts family first.

If I am blessed with this opportunity, here are 9 things that I will tell my kids:

1. You are a child of God.

2. Life happens when you decide to move forward.

3. No one owes you anything in life. Go after what you want!

4. Health is a gift. Don’t abuse it!

5. Don’t ever judge someone based on their race, religion or politics. We do well when we can understand people more than condemn them.

6. God is always talking to you, quietly. Are you listening?

7. Not everyone will like you and that is okay. You define you!

8. Surround yourself with people who encourage your growth and support you through your mistakes, growth and evolution.

9. When you break boundaries, you will receive pushback. It’s not personal. Transform the pushback into motivation.

3 Nourishing ways to heal as a Capricorn.

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Life is a healing journey. There is no such thing as a person who is completely healed and run from anyone who tells you that they have nothing to work on. Because as we grow, we learn and those who feel like they are done growing, are not willing to be humble.

With that being said, astrology can be a great tool to help us heal. I recommend you knowing your full chart that you can get by having your birthday and time that you were born.

As someone who has benefited from astrological healing, I encourage you to find out your full birth chart and if you have Capricorn in your Sun, Moon, Rising and Jupiter, apply these healing techniques to your life.

Here are 3 Nourishing ways that a Capricorn can heal:

1. Surrender to The Divine.

As someone who has a lot of Capricorn in my chart, I do not struggle with discipline. However, I have issues with releasing and allowing God (The Divine) to take over my life. Meditation and Yoga have come handy.

However, whatever allows you to simply release once you have done your part. Capricorn is ruled by Saturn, the planet of action. So sometimes those with this earth placement in their chart predominantly or in the areas I previously mentioned can look at life a mission rather than just living it.

Allow God to guide you. There is only so much control that you have and are supposed to have.

2. Stop overworking yourself.

Most Capricorns that I know lose themselves in their work. As I mentioned before, Capricorn’s ruler is Saturn- the planet of hard work. So, it is only natural to feel fulfilled by work.

However, life is not about work. Having drive and feeling accomplished is an admirable trait but not when it takes over your life. If you are consumed with your job or obligations, I ask you to take a step back and add some self-care to your daily routine so that you don’t neglect yourself for the sake of needing to feel accomplished.

3. Let people be.

Every Zodiac Sign has it’s light and shadow side. Light is when we are vibrating in our higher selves; shadow side is when we are in our low vibration.

An aspect of shadow side with Capricorns is the need to control other people. In fact, a lot of the time this energy can come across manipulating and controlling because of the need to have things a certain way.

The most loving thing that we can do for someone is to let them be. Yes, let them know if they are doing something wrong but people are drawn to others who are accepting and kind. When we learn to love from a place of liberation, we raise our vibration and welcome more love because we become love as opposed to see it as an object or something to obtain.

As one of my forever teachers, Maya Angelou says, ‘Love liberates!’ Release the need the need to control others and just be.

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9 Signs of Healthy Friendships.

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Naturally, when I was younger, I wanted to have a lot of friends to prove my popularity. I thought if I had a ton of friends then it would fulfill me but as I have gotten, I know that this is not the case.

I have also been shown time and time again, that it is easy to acquire friendships; however, maintaining them can be more challenging. Especially as we become more healthy and evolve, I have decided that I don’t need to be friends with everyone.

In my life, I strive for health and that goes with friendships, too. Therefore, if a bond with someone, friend or not, becomes unhealthy, I am okay with releasing it. There is a huge difference between unhealthy and experiencing differences in any relationship.

Here are 9 signs of healthy friendships:

1. You feel heard.

2. You don’t gossip about other friends of yours.

3. There is trust.

4. You can depend on them.

5. They do not disappear on you during a disagreement or when you confront them on an issue.

6. They respect your boundaries.

7. There is as much listening and understanding as there is talking.

8. There is no hierarchy. No person is above another.

9. You feel understood, supported and as though they are loyal to you.

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9 Affirmations for 2021.

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Another year is upon us and I am so grateful to be alive. Although last year was a tough one, it was one of the best years that I have had because I learned many lessons.And, I remembered the biggest lesson of all: divine source has placed a light in me (and in all of us) that is ignited once we allow it to work through us.

I am not a huge fan of New Year’s Resolutions; however, I do support betterment and intentional new beginnings.

Here are 9 affirmations for 2021:

1. I allow Divine Source (God) to work through me for The Higher Good.

2. I am a medium for Divine’s Source message and purpose.

3. I am in alignment with Divine Source.

4. I am in alignment with abundance.

5. I am still instead of overreacting.

6. I am at peace with my past.

7. I embrace new beginnings.

8. I know that everything is working out for the greater good.

9. I surrender all of my worries, anxieties and stresses to Divine Source because they have no place in my life.

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3 Lies that I no longer believe about modern feminism.

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Much like a lot of other young women, I came from a family of a lot of women. I watched a lot of my older family members (women) describe themselves as strong and that their strength intimidated the opposite sex.

Because I was raised this way, it was a given that I would become a feminist. Especially after being raised by a single Mother even though I would’ve preferred to have lived with my Father during my formative years. A secret that I have only ever acknowledged to myself recently.

I had difficulty being honest about this because my generation is the one that has become susceptible to the illusion of modern feminism: a woman can do whatever she wants without repercussions or self-reflection.

This article is not for everyone and I will take constructive criticism. However I ask those who are reading this and do not believe the modern feminist lie to question it themselves. After seeing someone that I admire speak about it recently, it has influenced me to write my own version of it.

I am not referring to equality, which is traditional feminism. I am acknowledging the difference between modern feminism, not traditional, and how it might be destructive for women as opposed to beneficial for us.

Here are 3 lies that I used to believe about modern feminism:

1. We do not need to grow or change.

Like I had mentioned earlier, I come from a family of strong women. This has influenced me to be drawn to others who have strength. Although there are many benefits to being surrounded by women (or men) who are strong, there is a downfall, that there is little room for improvement or self-correction.

Life is about growth and change. If we embody an energy of arrogance towards evolving and humbling ourselves, it sends a subconscious message to ourselves and others: that we are not good at hearing what others have to say or that we are only thinking about ourselves.

Both can be true, we can be beautiful and worthy but also growing and evolving. We don’t need to grow or change; however, when we don’t, we shouldn’t be surprised if people don’t want anything to do with us.

2. Men owe women for the past.

I’ve heard so many people say this for over a decade and I repeat the same thing over and over, ‘Contrary to what you may believe, no one owes you anything in life.’ This may sound harsh but if we feel owed, there is no need to be grateful.

People who feel owed are less likely to say thank you and be courteous because they feel like it was theirs to begin with. This is entitlement. Have you ever been around someone who is entitled? They are hard to deal with or get along with. We do ourselves more of a disservice by expecting than waiting to see the outcome.

I am very aware of the past and that women were not offered the same opportunity as men; however, we can’t use modern times to get revenge or demand things from men because it goes against the very fabric of forgiveness and renewal. If we truly forgive the past and how we were treated, we need to let go of the need to feel owed because it stops us more than anyone else by expecting and then being let down when things don’t go our way.

3. I have all the time in The World.

The older that I get and I end a relationship, the more that I feel like my time was wasted. It doesn’t mean that I will go around acting as though I am ungrateful that it happened. It means that next time, I won’t spend as much time on the mistake and red-flags before. I believe in self-accountability and if I want to have a healthy family of my own, I want to learn and grow so that I can do so.

I have sensed a certain energy lately amongst some young women that we have all the time in The World and we can have it all, and I was one of those who used to think that. However, I realized that the more I told myself that, the more that I attracted and allowed players into my life because I was embodying the feminine version of that.

Toxicity is not only masculine, it can also be feminine. And, one day I asked myself, how can I expect the men that I am with to be responsible over their lives and themselves if I am not. This is when I began to get my life into order. I won’t always get it right but that doesn’t mean that I stop trying. If I want a family one day with someone worthy of my time, I need to work for it.

It won’t just land into my lap one day, I need to make sure that I am representing the kind of person that I plan on marrying. Like all things worthy in life, it requires work and dedication.

*This applies to modern feminism in Western Culture.

Together, we rise! With Hali Tsotetsi.

Hali Tsotetsi

1. What has been a big part of your growth as a woman?

Self-reflection. Even though I have been a moderately disciplined person my whole life, something changed when I started practicing Bikram Yoga eleven years ago: I couldn’t run from myself anymore.

Previously, I would spend time deflecting from responsibility or choosing things that were not in my best interest. My true growth came when I sat in a hot room for 90 minutes and admitted my faults. There is something powerful about being humble because then we can grow from that point on.

2. Who, which person (s) has inspired you to stay true to your role in your divine feminine?

My Father. He encouraged me to be able to be feminine and strong. I remember specifically when I was 9 and wanted to start dancing again, he said that I should do martial arts, too. He went on to explain to me that because I am naturally very feminine, I need to make sure that I am not a pushover and am aware of my strength.

He always encouraged me to stay true to my femininity but do so with a sense of grace and awareness.

3. What other women have supported you when you needed it the most?

The first memory that I can think of when I read this is the random strangers that I meet who support me in an unexpected ways without wanting anything in-return. Just because it is the right thing to do.

An example of this was when I had a stalker in New York City. A man used to follow me and there was a woman who worked at the dispatcher station at the police unit near my house who basically saved my life. She believed me about what was happening and encouraged me to stay strong.

Unfortunately, I have had a number of stalkers and a lot of female police officers have helped me through that situation. When people in my life didn’t believe me or were not there for me, I found support in some of these officers and I am grateful.

4. What has been the hardest part of being a strong woman?

It’s funny that I wrote these questions and now that I’m filling them out, I question whether I am strong or not.

The hardest part of being a woman who is growing and evolving is when I see other women jealous of it and who want to destroy me for what I have accomplished. I would love to say that I have been surrounded by supportive women; however, that has not always been the case. Some of the meanest, spiteful and unkind things that have been done to me have been done so by other women.

That is what encouraged me to start this. So that the hurt I have felt by being hurt by other women and by previously hurting other women can transpire into a consciousness and vibration of healing & divinity.

5. Where do you see yourself evolving in the next few years?

Ultimately, wherever God wants me to be. But if I had a choice, with a family and kids. I will always be a Lightworker, will continue to do my readings and write more articles.

6. What imprint would you like to leave on the world?

That no matter what has happened to you, you can overcome it. Instead of using what you were born with or have as a disadvantage, how can you change it?

I have overcome a lot and will continue to do so. I am not special, I am a human and that is the beautiful thing about evolution. If you believe it and do it, so can you.

7. What is your social media or ways that we can keep up with you and your work?

@hali_t_lightwork on Instagram and YouTube.

Ce qu'il a fallu pour m'atteindre.

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Ce qu'il a fallu pour m'atteindre.

Il m'a fallu me rappeler que tout le monde n'est pas pour moi et que je ne suis pas pour tout le monde, Pour m'atteindre.

Il m'a fallu accepter que même si mes parents ont essayé dur, ils m'ont toujours échoué, Pour m'atteindre.

Il m'a fallu me défendre, Pour m'atteindre.

Il m'a fallu pardonner ma blessure d'enfance, Pour m'atteindre

Il m'a fallu affronter mon mal intérieur pour y faire face dans le monde, Pour m'atteindre.

Il m'a fallu me débarrasser du fardeau d'avoir à penser aux autres sous un jour négatif, Pour m'atteindre.

Il m'a fallu embrasser ma divinité intérieure, Pour m'atteindre.

Il m'a fallu comprendre que je ne peux pas parler d'un endroit peu profond. Je veux seulement parler de profondeur et de compréhension, Pour m'atteindre.

Il m'a fallu abandonner le besoin de me punir et de me culpabiliser à la perfection, Pour m'atteindre.

Il m'a fallu libérer les gens de ma vie qui veulent me punir et me culpabiliser en ce qu'ils veulent que je sois, Pour m'atteindre.

Il m'a fallu comprendre que l'immobilité est le remède ultime, Pour m’atteindre.

What it took to get to me- December 2020

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What it took to get to me.
It took me remembering that not everyone is for me and I am not for everyone,

To get to me.

It took me accepting that even though my parents tried hard, they still failed me,

To get to me.

It took me standing up for myself,

To get to me.

It took me forgiving my childhood hurt,

To get to me

It took me facing my inner evil to face it in The World,

To get to me.

It took me releasing the burden of needing to think of others in a negative light,

To get to me.

It took me embracing my inner divinity,

To get to me.

It took me understanding that I cannot speak from a place of shallowness. I only want to speak from depth and understanding,

To get to me.

It took me letting go of the need to punish myself and guilt myself into perfection,

To get to me.

It took me releasing people in my life who want to punish me and guilt me into who they want me to be,

To get to me.

It took me understanding that stillness is the ultimate remedy,

To get to me.

Together, we rise! With Leah Ramos.

Leah Ramos

1. What has been a big part of your growth as a woman?

A big part of my growth as a woman has been nurturing my relationship with my body.  My relationship with my body has been such a journey and it began with being heavily involved with gymnastics when I was a kid and then falling in love with dance and yoga.  I got to know my body on a very physical level but mentally and spiritually, I felt there was a disconnection. 

I grew up in a very religious home and embraced Christianity where phrases like “modest is the hottest” were very common.  Once I started exploring outside of my religion and more into my sexuality, I felt more and more empowered as a woman especially within the past few years.  I’ve learned to love my body through all its changes and am grateful for the women that have helped me along the way.

2. Who, which person (s), has inspired you to stay true to your role in your divine feminine?

A friend of mine that I met in LA, Leilani, and multiple women in the Filipina community in LA were the ones who introduced me to the concept of my role in my divine feminine. I went through an amazing experience with a group called A Stage of Our Own where my role in my divine feminine was nurtured and fully realized.

I was inspired to connect with my divine feminine through learning more about my Filipino culture, connecting with strong Filipina women who were already in touch with their role in their divine feminine, and understanding my connection to my ancestors.

3. What other women have supported you when you needed it the most?

One of my best friends, Abby from Ohio, is one woman in my life that supports me the most when I need it.  She’s been my closest friend for the longest time and I miss her so much!!  We have gone through similar milestones in life and I feel like I can always talk to her about anything.  She’s always supported me emotionally and mentally even though we’ve lived in different cities for over three years now.

4. What has been the hardest part of being a strong woman?

The hardest part of being a strong woman for me is hearing and seeing other women put themselves down and not seeing their own worth even though they can easily see it in others.  

5. Where do you see yourself evolving in the next few years?

I see myself evolving into a stronger, more versatile instructor, having established my brand more clearly, and becoming a better cook!  

6. What imprint would you like to leave on the world?

The imprint that I would like to leave is more people learning to love and fuel themselves with good food and good movement.  

7. What is your social media or ways that we can keep up with you and your work?

My personal IG is @bruce_leeah and my business IG is @forgebyleah.