The 4 Ways that I have applied the 12 laws of karma to a recent break-up.

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I honestly never thought that I would have ended my last relationship until it became too difficult to be in. I thought that he was my soulmate and, maybe he is? However, for self- preservation and restoration, separation between him and I is necessary.


I was always told that love is kind. So, it is hard for me to stay with someone who continues to do something unkind to me after I have told him how it upsets me.


It hasn’t been easy. Is it ever easy? However, I am applying some of the laws of karma to this break-up. Which I have found helpful and, this is how:


1. I need to be the person who I want to be with.

I was in a yoga class when the teacher read out the laws of karma, I started crying. I cried because I promised to hate my ex and hurt him how he had hurt me. I was going to get even, even if it meant stealing my peace and some of my time. She read out The Law of Creation, when we change ourselves; our lives change too.


As the tears poured, I imagined what would happen if I got revenge and had a bunch of men around as validation, as he does with women. I cried because I knew and truly understood that I am better than that behaviour. If I am truly done with him, I need to elevate my behaviour. Which means rising above what has been done to me.


2. If I let him go, I have to truly mean it

It’s been difficult to let go of him because I have been told by a few different psychics that he is my soulmate. I’m not sure why and maybe I will never know. So, I keep letting him go and going back to him because a part of me wants to believe what I have been told.


When the yoga teacher read out The Law of Humility, I had a lightbulb moment: I need to accept that his behaviour is toxic towards me so that I can move forward. His behaviour is toxic because it creates behaviour in me that wants to get revenge, be spiteful and jealous- when there is never a need for any of that.


So, I accept that this relationship is toxic so that I can release the burden of needing to lie when something is weighing me down.



3. Be here now.

After I made the decision to no longer be with him, I asked myself, what if I’m never with my soulmate? And, I became sad. You see, since I was a kid, I have longed for my soulmate. I had a deep knowing and understanding that someone living was another person who I understood beyond the physical. And, when we met, we would understand.


I thought that this happened with this man. That is why I stayed and that is why I dwelled.


However, I was listening to a motivational video this morning, it spoke of our better days are on our way. Which brings me to The Law of Here and Now, progress only happens in this moment. I can’t look to the past and look to the future to be happy and content. I can only be here now.


4. Responsibility manifests through actions.

As I mentioned earlier, I was planning war with him because I know that I could get to him. The hurt me wanted to hurt him. When the yoga teacher read The Law of Resposibility, it reminded me that I need to take responsibility for how I ended up in this circumstance and the responsibility that I will take moving forward.


This man and I have a history of him chasing me and me running away from him. So, it created the atmosphere that we show each other love through him chasing me and by me not being truly present. Honestly, a part of me was afraid to be truly present because I was afraid that once the chase was done, so would we.


The person that I want to be with shouldn’t have to chase me for a few months because I will see their true heart, kind actions and glowing aura. I won’t be continuously afraid of him and run. I won’t need to be convinced to be with someone because that creates a breeding ground for unhealthy behaviour. And, what is love, if we can’t express it through kind actions?

Dear W,

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 Dear W,


Goodbye. I know that I promised to love you forever but it’s become increasingly hard and toxic to love you within close proximity. So, I am choosing now to love you from distance.


I ask that you respect this distance.


Yesterday, I promised that I would hate you but now I understand that in hating you, I only end up hating myself.


So, in the theme of forgiveness, I accept who you are and I let you go. I’m hoping that this time that I let go that I move onto a healthier relationship: one that gives me back what I have given it. First with myself and then, with someone else.


In the spirit of progression, please leave me alone. I cannot handle another interaction with you ever again.


In the spirit of peace, I wish you well! Truly and deeply well because sending you bad wishes is only a reflection of who I am. And, I am trying each day to be kinder, loving and more understanding.


I would say, ‘til later’; however, there is no later.


Goodbye W

I regret. Silver-lining.

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Universe, please help me see the silver-lining because right now, I have deep regret.


I regret ever giving him a chance.

I regret ever meeting him.


I regret ever listening to the possibility that he could be a good person.


I regret everything, absolutely everything.


I regret believing.


I regret caring.


I regret loving.


I regret anything about him and to do with him.


Please, Universe, help me to see the silver-lining? I’m finding it hard to see the silver-lining.

5 cosas que todas las mujeres fuertes necesitan saber sobre las relaciones.

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Como mujer fuerte, he aprendido muchas cosas acerca de estar en relaciones. Uno de los más obvios es la paciencia. Sin embargo, también he aprendido muchas otras cosas.




Estas son las cinco cosas que creo que todas las mujeres fuertes necesitan escuchar acerca de las relaciones:




1. Sé paciente.

A veces no es fácil tratar con las personas, de hecho, tratar con algunas personas puede ser frustrante y molesto. La mayoría de nosotros vivimos vidas ocupadas y lo último que queremos hacer es darle a alguien otra oportunidad a veces. Pero, ¿quién sabe a dónde puede llevarte esa otra oportunidad? Podría ser la única oportunidad que te acerca a alguien. Nunca lo sabrás a menos que lo intentes.




2. Los límites son herramientas; no armas

Cuando muchos de nosotros pensamos en los límites, pensamos en ser malos y rudos. Sin embargo, sin límites, ¿cómo sabrás las intenciones de alguien? Los límites no tienen que ser expresados  con profanidad y una vez que haya tenido suficiente. De hecho, pueden mencionarse como parte de quien eres. Lo que estás dispuesto a aceptar y lo que puedes manejar es parte de quién eres. Está bien expresarlo.




3. Escucha a alguien más.

Hablando honestamente, este no es mi punto fuerte. Entonces, estoy aprendiendo esto contigo. Escuchar requiere más de estar presente y escuchar a alguien salir; sin necesidad de decirle algo a esa persona. Como mujeres fuertes, estamos tan listos para responder con una respuesta. Sin embargo, a veces la fuerza significa estar abierto. Ser lo suficientemente vulnerables como para abrirnos a algo que es diferente de lo que pensábamos. En las relaciones, anteriormente he pasado gran parte de mi tiempo cortando hombres que parecían intentar herirme. Ahora, estoy aprendiendo a no asumir. Preguntar cuáles son las intenciones de alguien. Las intenciones le mostrarán hacia dónde se dirige esa persona y su relación.




4. Mantente abierto.

Cuanto más viejo me hago, más me cuesta mantenerme abierto. Es una práctica diaria. Una que requiere que no se haga. Aprendiendo del pasado y deshaciéndolo. Deshacer el dolor, el dolor y la pérdida que nos hacen más fuertes pero también nos cansan. Como mujeres fuertes, a veces confundimos fuerza con estar encerradas y vigiladas. Sin embargo, tengo que seguir recordándome que la fuerza consiste en no dejar que el pasado te agote: en tu mente, en tu cuerpo y en tu espíritu. Mantenerse abierto requiere fuerza pero fuerza que te hará sentirte más feliz y más en paz contigo mismo y con los demás.




5. El amor lo es todo.

Hay muchos tipos de amor: amor desordenado, amor destructivo, amor rudo, amor pacífico, amor respetuoso, amor insustituible, amor de cachorros, amor de bebés, amor sexy ... la lista continúa y -en.


En todos estos tipos de amor; ninguna es más importante que la otra. Todo tipo de amor tiene un propósito. A veces, cada relación experimentará la imagen más amplia del amor. El amor no siempre es rosas y sol. Las rosas y el sol es genial; sin embargo, atravesar la dificultad puede demostrarse lo fuerte que es tu amor el uno para el otro. Obviamente, hay una diferencia entre una relación no saludable y una sana; sin embargo, las relaciones sanas a veces pasan por pruebas. Los juicios no siempre significan renunciar a una relación. A veces, las pruebas significan salir más fuertes de lo que hiciste en el otro lado juntos.

5 Things all strong women need to know about relationships.

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As a strong woman, I have learnt many things about being in relationships. One of the most obvious ones is patience. However, I have learnt many other things, too. 


These are the five things that I believe that all strong women need to hear about relationships:


1. Be patient.

Sometimes it is not easy dealing with people, in fact dealing with some people can be frustrating and annoying. Most of us live busy lives and the last thing that we want to do is give someone another chance sometimes. But, who knows where that other chance can take you? It could be the one chance that brings you closer to someone. You will never know unless you try.


2. Boundaries are tools; not weapons.

When a lot of us think of boundaries, we think of being mean and harsh. However, without boundaries, how will you know anyone’s intentions? Boundaries don’t have to be expressed with profanity and once you have had enough. In fact, they can be mentioned as a part of who you are. What you are willing to accept and what you can handle is a part of who you are. It’s okay to express it. 


3. Listen to someone else.

Honestly speaking, this is not my strong point. So, I am learning this with you. Listening requires more of being present and hearing someone out; without needing to say something back to that person. As strong women, we are so ready to fire back with an answer. However, sometimes strength means being open. Being vulnerable enough to open ourselves up to something that is different than we thought. In relationships,  I have previously spent a lot of my time cutting men off who appeared to try and hurt me. Now, I am learning to not assume. To ask what someone’s intentions are. Intentions will show you where that person and relationship is headed.


4. Stay open.

The older that I get, the harder it becomes for me to stay open. It’s a daily practice. One that requires un-doing. Learning from the past and un-doing it. Un-doing the hurt, pain and the loss that makes us stronger but also makes us jaded. As strong women, sometimes we confuse strength with being closed off and guarded. However, I have to keep reminding myself that strength is about not letting the past wear you down: in your mind, in your body and in your spirit. Staying open requires strength but strength that will leave you feeling happier and more at peace towards yourself and others.


5. Love is everything.

There are many types of love: messy-love, destructive-love, tough-love, peaceful-love, respectful-love, irreplaceable love, puppy-love, baby-love, sexy-love... the list goes on-and-on.

In all of these types of love; not one is more important than the other. Every type of love has a purpose. Sometimes that every relationship will experience the broader picture of love. Love is not always roses and sunshine. Roses and sunshine is great; however, going through difficulty can prove to each other how strong your love is for one another. Obviously, there is a difference between an unhealthy relationship and a healthy one; however, healthy relationships sometimes go through trials. Trials don’t always mean giving up on a relationship. Sometimes trials mean coming out stronger than you did on the other side together.

Izinto ezingu-15 engizifundile ngothando

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Njengomuntu osanda kushada, ngezinye izikhathi ngiphuthelwa uthando nothando oluvela kumlingani wakho. Ngemuva kobuhlobo obuncane obungakapheli ngokuphelele ezimweni ezinokuthula kakhulu, ngaphambi kokuba ngilahlekelwe ukholo othandweni lobuhlobo nokusebenzisana ngifuna ukuzikhumbuza ngalokho engikufundile kulobu buhlobo. Ukuze ngikwazi ukuqhubeka phambili ngothando nokuvuleka.




Lezi ezimbalwa zezinto engizifundile ngothando:


1. Ukuhlala uvulekile.


2. Ukuthemba isithombe esikhulu.


3. Ukuthethelela.


4. Ukuvumela ukuhamba kokulindelwe.


5. Ukuzizwa.


6. Ukungathathi izinkinga zabanye abantu kanye namazwana ngabanye.


7. Ukuhlala manje.


8. Ukuthanda manje.


9. Ukucaca.


10. Ukuba nemingcele.


11. Ukukhumbula kodwa hhayi ukubamba intukuthelo.


12. Ukwamukela uthando.


13. Ukuphumula.


14. Lobuhlobo obuseduze busekelwe ekwamukelweni.



15. Ukuthi kukhona njalo uthando ngemva kothando.

15 Things that I have learnt about romantic love.

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As a newly-single woman, sometimes I miss the affection and love from a partner. After a few relationships that haven’t exactly ended in the most peaceful circumstances, before I lose faith in romantic love and partnerships I want to remind myself of what I have learnt in these relationships. So that I can move forward with love and openness.


These are a few of the things that I have learnt about love:


1. To stay open.


2. To trust the bigger picture.


3. To forgive.


4. To let go of expectations.


5. To feel.


6. To not take other people’s issues and comments personally.


7. To live now.


8. To love now.


9. To be clear.


10. To have boundaries.


11. To remember but not hold a grudge.


12. To accept love.


13. To relax.


14. That intimacy is based on acceptance.


15. That there is always love after love.

Tengo la esperanza de encontrar el amor verdadero y el respeto.

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 Tengo la esperanza de encontrar el amor verdadero y el respeto.


Tendrá la forma de alguien amable, valiente y considerado.


Él estará en la forma de alguien que es amable y amable. Amoroso y sabio Estable pero aventurero.


Tengo la esperanza de encontrar el amor verdadero y el respeto.


Él será alguien que ponga a "nosotros" primero y me recuerda que su atención y admiración no son para ningún otro. Confiaré en que él se mantendrá fiel y verdadero.


Él será alguien que se enamora de mi mente y mi alma. Como resultado, apreciaré mi cuerpo también.


Tengo la esperanza de encontrar el amor verdadero y el respeto. Él será alguien honesto, que vivirá según su sabia verdad y me recordará que viva en la mía.



Él se mantendrá firme en sí mismo y no necesita elogios ni aprobación externa para completarlo.



Aportará valor a mi vida y a otras personas, y esto hará que yo quiera elegirlo a él y solo a él con quien pasar la vida.

Les 3 raisons pour lesquelles j'ai décidé d'abandonner ma flamme jumelle.

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Mon histoire Twin Flame a été une histoire de complexité et d'aventure. Si vous n’êtes pas au courant de mon parcours avec une flamme jumelle, veuillez vous reporter à l’article intitulé «5 choses que j’ai apprises au cours de mon voyage avec une flamme jumelle».




Récemment, j'ai décidé d'abandonner ma flamme jumelle. Ce n’est pas une décision facile à prendre, mais c’est la meilleure chose à faire à cause de ces 3 choses:




1. Je mérite d'être en paix.


Pour moi, rien ne devrait vous coûter la paix et, si c'est le cas, vous devez le laisser partir. La relation entre ma flamme jumelle et moi était devenue coûteuse pour ma paix. Vous voyez, dans mes espoirs et aspirations d'être avec lui, j'ai oublié une chose: cette vie se passe maintenant. La vie n’arrive pas demain, la semaine prochaine ou l’année prochaine. La vie se passe maintenant. Pendant que j'attendais ce que les médiums m'avaient annoncé, mon niveau d'anxiété a commencé à augmenter. J'ai commencé à être impatient et je me suis demandé pourquoi cela ne s'était pas encore produit. J’ai renoncé à une relation et au temps qui me séparait de lui et il n’a pas donné les résultats escomptés. Pourquoi?


En toute honnêteté, je ne sais pas pourquoi cela n’est pas arrivé, mais je sais une chose. Chaque jour est trop précieux pour que l’on s’inquiète pour une personne qui n’est pas dans ma vie. Alors, pour honorer la paix et le moment présent, j'ai choisi de le libérer de ma vie.






2. Je fais confiance à l'univers.


Chaque fois que j'oublie, on me rappelle que l'Univers est mon dos. L'Univers a tout notre dos, nous devons simplement permettre à l'Univers de prendre soin de nous. Je suis un partisan et j'aime que les choses soient en ordre; Cependant, avec l'ordre de l'Univers, mon sens du contrôle peut parfois me gêner. Il n'y a pas de meilleur chemin que celui que Dieu a pour moi et, quand les choses deviennent trop difficiles à gérer pour moi, je dois le libérer.




Je ne suis pas sûr de savoir pourquoi Dieu m'a envoyé tous ces signes concernant ma flamme jumelle et pourquoi je me sens toujours comme si lui et moi ne signifiaient rien pour chacun d'eux, mais je sais que je fais confiance à Dieu. Complètement et complètement. Alors, comme je respecte cette confiance, je le libère. Je le libère pour que je puisse sortir de mon propre chemin.






3. Le chemin sur lequel il se trouve est différent de celui sur lequel je veux être.


Comme je l'ai déjà mentionné, il est DJ / producteur et je dois me battre contre son style de vie. Ce mode de vie est celui dont je faisais partie quand j'étais plus jeune. Faire partie de ce style de vie m'a coûté beaucoup: ma paix, ma confiance en moi et ma vérité. Je ne sais pas pourquoi il continue de faire partie de ce style de vie, mais je sais que mon parcours est beaucoup plus sain que celui que j’étais auparavant.




Je vois ma flamme jumelle et moi sur deux chemins différents. L'un n'est pas meilleur que l'autre; Cependant, j'ai trop travaillé en interne pour revenir à ma vie passée. Il y a trois ans, j'ai prié pour que je veuille seulement être dans des relations qui me rapprochent de Dieu et de l'illumination. Cette relation entre lui et moi ne semble pas en être une. Par conséquent, il est temps de le libérer et de le libérer. C'est un homme merveilleux, bon au cœur, beau et gentil et je l'aime. Avec tout l'amour que j'ai pour lui, je lui pardonne et je le laisse partir. J'espère qu'il est aimé comme il mérite d'être aimé sans que je ne l'oblige à être différent ou à changer qui il est et comment il choisit de passer son temps.

The 3 reasons why I have chosen to let go of my Twin Flame.

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My Twin Flame story has been one of intricacy and adventure. If you are not up to speed with my twin flame journey, please refer to the article entitled, ‘5 things that I have learnt on my twin flame journey’.


Recently, I have decided to let go of my Twin Flame. It has not been an easy decision but it felt like the best thing to do because of these 3 things: 


1. I deserve to be in peace.


To me, nothing should ever cost you your peace and, if it does, you must let it go. The relationship between my Twin Flame and I had become costly of my peace. You see, in my hopes and aspirations of being with him, I forgot one thing: that life is happening now. Life doesn’t happen tomorrow, next week or next year. Life is happening now. While I was waiting for what psychics had told me would happen to occur, my anxiety levels started to rise. I started to become impatient and asked myself, how come it hasn’t happened yet? I gave up a relationship and time to be with him and it hasn’t turned out how I wanted it to. Why?

In all fair honesty, I am not sure why it hasn’t happened but I do know one thing. Each day is too precious to spend worrying about someone who isn’t in my life. So, to honour peace and the present moment, I have chosen to release him from my life.



2. I trust The Universe.


Every time that I forget, I am reminded that The Universe has my back. The Universe has all of our backs, we just have to allow The Universe to take care of us. I am a go-getter and I like things to be in order; however, with the order of The Universe, my sense of control can sometimes get in the way. There is no better path than the one that God has for me and, when things become too much for me to handle, I must release it.


I’m not sure why God sent me all these signs about my twin flame and why I still feel like he and I aren’t meant for each but, something that I do know is that I trust God. Fully and completely. So, as I honour this trust, I release him. I release him so that I can get out of my own way.



3. The path that he is on is one that is different to the one that I want to be on.


As I have mentioned before, he is a DJ/ Producer and I have an internal battle with his lifestyle. That lifestyle is one that I used to be a part of when I was younger. Being a part of that lifestyle cost me a lot: my peace, my self worth and my truth. I’m not sure why he continues to be a part of that lifestyle but, one thing that I do know is that the path that I am on now is a lot healthier than the one that I was on before.


I see my Twin Flame and I on two different paths. One is not better than the other; however, I have done too much internal work to go back to how I used to live. Three years ago, I prayed that I only want to be in relationships that bring me closer to God and enlightenment. This relationship between him and I doesn’t appear to be one that does so. Therefore, it is time to release him and it. He is a wonderful, kind-hearted, beautiful and kind man and I love him. With all the love that I have for him, I forgive him and I let him go. I hope that he is loved the way that he deserves to be loved without me forcing him to be different or change who he is and how he chooses to spend his time.