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4 Things that my Twin-Flame connection has taught me.

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In my last article, I wrote about the journey that I have been on with my twin-flame, or what some people refer to as soulmate. Following this article, I have received many questions about my journey.


One of the main questions was, what is the point of this connection between two people? It is believed that the main reason for this connection is to elevate both people in this connection so that they elevate the level of consciousness in The World. Therefore, a lot of growth needs to happen within both people for them to re-unite otherwise it is destructive.
So, I only found it fitting that I write about the four main things that I have learnt about myself through this journey:


1. Insecurity begins from within.
After I met my twin-flame, he came into my workplace with another woman and I swore that I would never speak to him again. I blocked him on social media and asked myself how rude it is for someone who is interested in me to show up with another woman? Looking back, I was projecting my insecurities onto him. I never even asked who she was to him. I was so hurt by my past that I assumed what had happened to me would happen again. In the past, I have had relationships where the person that I was with felt insecure and projected that into me, by telling me that I wasn’t worthy or making me feel that way. So, when I saw my twin-flame asking for things for another woman, my old story came up. The story that says that I am not enough. I found myself resenting him for it until one day, I broke free of this story and freed myself of the need to carry baggage and insecurities from my past. I created a new story: I am love, I am light and I am enough, whether someone else thinks so or not.


2. Hate is attachment too.
During my angry phase with my twin-flame, I swore that I would never speak to him again. I received signs from The Universe: See his name on billboards, people would mention him around me and I would come into contact with people who knew him. I was running away from him and what he came with, only to be followed by messages of him. I woke up one day, crying as I asked myself why him? I had developed so much hate from him that it was affecting me. I would hope that I never saw him again and when I did, I would act like he didn’t exist or that I didn’t know him. After my fits of rage and upset out of disappointment, I had a realization that hate is attachment. The kind kind of attachment that breeds hostility and negativity. It was weighing me down. I decided to move forward towards forgiveness and love. I did so by meditating and accepting him for who he is while releasing any need for him to act and be the way that I want him to be.


3. Forgiveness is the foundation of any relationship.
As I mentioned in the last article, I had trouble accepting his past- sometimes I still do. You see, I have spent a lot of my adulthood, seeking peace and health. And, I had always thought that my twin-flame was somewhere on this Earth doing the same. So, when I found out that he was a producer in the music industry, I was disappointed because that industry comes from what I have spent my life running away from: drugs, exploitation of women and toxic people. I was on a bus in Colorado when it dawned on me that, his past has brought him to this point. Whatever has led him to this point, I need to be grateful for and through gratitude, I found forgiveness. Through forgiveness, I can appreciate him for who he is. He is a wonderful person with a past and I can’t hold my past against him because if I do, I block the love that we can give to each other whole-heartedly.


4. Let love in.
A part of me was afraid to love him because I was holding onto what has happened before. I found myself speaking (during a class that I was teaching) about being open and trusting love. The thought came to my mind, have I? Have I been open? The answer was no. Then I thought, why? Another thought came to me saying that the past might happen again. I began an inward battle of the devil vs. the angel. The devil being the one that wanted me to stay in resentment and hold onto the past and anger; the angel wanted me to progress, to forgive and to let my twin flame’s love in. From that moment on, I chose to let his love in. Everyday, I choose to let his love in because his love makes me feel safe, helps me break boundaries & limitations that I have placed on myself and, reminds me that we deserve love.

Dear God, did I give up too soon?

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Dear God,


Please guide me. I need your direction.


You gave me all these signs and lead me to someone who seems so broken and in pain. And, we all know about people who are broken and in pain, they replicate it onto others. I have dealt out my share of pain onto others and received a fair hand enough to know that that is the foundation of a healthy relationship.


I have done too much work on myself to be lead backwards. I only want to move forward. God, guide me to light. I’m tired of being on the journey of light alone. You promised me a partner.


A partner who is kind, loving and supportive. I can do it alone but I would prefer this journey to be with another and with the person that you lead me to. However, his actions have shown me that he is not prepared for the light. He chases light but once he has it, sabotages it. I don’t have the energy or time to hold someone accountable for their own guidance to light, that has to come from him. Because I will only become more resentful if I stay and he continues to behave like this.

 

I am worth respect, kindness, compassion and a healthy form of love. God, a part of me is afraid that if I walk from this man then I will never be with my soulmate. The one who you told me was my true love. So, I am not sure what to do. I choose to be with someone who puts me first and will not settle for anything else.


God, please guide me? You know what is best. You’ve shown me before, please show me again? I want to stand up for myself and what I believe in and also be with my soulmate. Is this possible? I am done with my Ego. I am done with facades; I just want to be true. True in love, true in self, true in wealth and true in presence.


I know that this is possible, please guide me? I am patient. I trust you. You have never let me down.


Sincerely,

4 More ways that I have applied The Laws of Karma to a recent break-up.

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If you are not up to speed with the latest article that I wrote before this, please check it out? It will enlighten you about what I am about to elaborate on.


I recently went through a break-up and I have found The 12 Laws of Karma really helpful.


Here are 4 more ways that I have applied these laws to what I am going through:


1. I participated, too.

Since hearing these twelve laws again, I have become obsessed with them as we can apply them to everything in life. When I first read over them after hearing them in that yoga class, I landed on The Law of Creation- Life doesn’t just happen. It requires our participation.


As I mentioned beforehand, my Ex courted me by chasing me for a few months. During those months, I made myself out to be the victim as though there was nowhere to run but into his arms. Being reminded that I have participated in this, is empowering. I can/ will say no moving forward, no matter what gift he sends me, billboard he puts up or song he writes for me.



2. It’s time to practice what I’ve been preaching.

I had a lightbulb moment during a SoulCycle class: I am a beautiful, strong and kind women; I deserve to be treated accordingly. Then I read The Law of Giving and Hospitality- If you believe something to be true, then sometime in your life you will be called to demonstrate it.


If I truly believe that I am worthy of genuine respect and kindness. Then, now is the time to practice it. Not when someone is treating me well but when I have to walk away from someone who has treated me the opposite of how I should be treated. Standing firm in how I think I should be treated is demonstrating that I deserve to be treated like a strong and beautiful woman.


3. Forgiveness is the ultimate peace.

As I mentioned in the last article, when I was hurt by his actions, I declared war. I swore that I would prove to him that he was wrong and I wanted to get even. I started plotting and scheming, feeling like the opposite of a Yogi. I had developed so much hate that nothing else but revenge would suffice.


Forgiveness seemed like a fallacy until I was in that same yoga class and the teacher read The Great Law- As you sow, so shall you reap. I began to envision how much hate I could inflict on him and realized that all that hate would hurt me more than him because I would have to think of the revenge, inflict it and then remember what I had done. Is life worth putting out all that negative energy? After this thought, I decided to choose forgiveness. Forgiveness so that I can clearly cut the chord between him and I.


4. It takes enough times that it takes to move forward.

I’m not sure why I feel such a strong connection to him but one day, I will understand. However, a connection to a relationship that is toxic is a negative one.


Reading The Law of Change- history repeats itself until we learn the lessons that we need to change, reminded me that I may not have been able to successfully keep a distance from him before. But, hopefully I will be able to now. Otherwise I will keep experiencing the pain that I felt in that relationship. Being in this relationship has been a major lesson of my life and I had to learn these lessons so that I could see the change that I needed to make before I moved on. Lessons that I am still learning and reflecting on.

The 4 Ways that I have applied the 12 laws of karma to a recent break-up.

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I honestly never thought that I would have ended my last relationship until it became too difficult to be in. I thought that he was my soulmate and, maybe he is? However, for self- preservation and restoration, separation between him and I is necessary.


I was always told that love is kind. So, it is hard for me to stay with someone who continues to do something unkind to me after I have told him how it upsets me.


It hasn’t been easy. Is it ever easy? However, I am applying some of the laws of karma to this break-up. Which I have found helpful and, this is how:


1. I need to be the person who I want to be with.

I was in a yoga class when the teacher read out the laws of karma, I started crying. I cried because I promised to hate my ex and hurt him how he had hurt me. I was going to get even, even if it meant stealing my peace and some of my time. She read out The Law of Creation, when we change ourselves; our lives change too.


As the tears poured, I imagined what would happen if I got revenge and had a bunch of men around as validation, as he does with women. I cried because I knew and truly understood that I am better than that behaviour. If I am truly done with him, I need to elevate my behaviour. Which means rising above what has been done to me.


2. If I let him go, I have to truly mean it

It’s been difficult to let go of him because I have been told by a few different psychics that he is my soulmate. I’m not sure why and maybe I will never know. So, I keep letting him go and going back to him because a part of me wants to believe what I have been told.


When the yoga teacher read out The Law of Humility, I had a lightbulb moment: I need to accept that his behaviour is toxic towards me so that I can move forward. His behaviour is toxic because it creates behaviour in me that wants to get revenge, be spiteful and jealous- when there is never a need for any of that.


So, I accept that this relationship is toxic so that I can release the burden of needing to lie when something is weighing me down.



3. Be here now.

After I made the decision to no longer be with him, I asked myself, what if I’m never with my soulmate? And, I became sad. You see, since I was a kid, I have longed for my soulmate. I had a deep knowing and understanding that someone living was another person who I understood beyond the physical. And, when we met, we would understand.


I thought that this happened with this man. That is why I stayed and that is why I dwelled.


However, I was listening to a motivational video this morning, it spoke of our better days are on our way. Which brings me to The Law of Here and Now, progress only happens in this moment. I can’t look to the past and look to the future to be happy and content. I can only be here now.


4. Responsibility manifests through actions.

As I mentioned earlier, I was planning war with him because I know that I could get to him. The hurt me wanted to hurt him. When the yoga teacher read The Law of Resposibility, it reminded me that I need to take responsibility for how I ended up in this circumstance and the responsibility that I will take moving forward.


This man and I have a history of him chasing me and me running away from him. So, it created the atmosphere that we show each other love through him chasing me and by me not being truly present. Honestly, a part of me was afraid to be truly present because I was afraid that once the chase was done, so would we.


The person that I want to be with shouldn’t have to chase me for a few months because I will see their true heart, kind actions and glowing aura. I won’t be continuously afraid of him and run. I won’t need to be convinced to be with someone because that creates a breeding ground for unhealthy behaviour. And, what is love, if we can’t express it through kind actions?

Dear W,

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 Dear W,


Goodbye. I know that I promised to love you forever but it’s become increasingly hard and toxic to love you within close proximity. So, I am choosing now to love you from distance.


I ask that you respect this distance.


Yesterday, I promised that I would hate you but now I understand that in hating you, I only end up hating myself.


So, in the theme of forgiveness, I accept who you are and I let you go. I’m hoping that this time that I let go that I move onto a healthier relationship: one that gives me back what I have given it. First with myself and then, with someone else.


In the spirit of progression, please leave me alone. I cannot handle another interaction with you ever again.


In the spirit of peace, I wish you well! Truly and deeply well because sending you bad wishes is only a reflection of who I am. And, I am trying each day to be kinder, loving and more understanding.


I would say, ‘til later’; however, there is no later.


Goodbye W